Listen, real poetry doesn't say anything...: December 2004

Saturday, December 25, 2004

She hath a name...

I named her Penny. Penny Lane*.
Yay for groupies and cars named after them!
*For those of you who are unaware:
Pennie Lane is the name of an infamous band groupie.

Trip post-poned--

Instead of leaving for Austin on the 26th [tomorrow], I will now be departing on Monday the 27th [2 days]. My plane arrives at 3:00 pm Monday afternoon.
Sorry for the inconvenience.
Loooooooove.<3
OH-- and Merry Christmas.
OHOH-and I got an '03 silver Mustang for Christmas.

Friday, December 24, 2004

BUT THEY NEVER TRULY HEAL

It's that exact moment, sitting in your car...
Mid-conversation with the closest of friends...
when you realize that that summer is passed and gone,
and you're very-much-so in between homes.
Back there is deteriorating,
but here is not quite your own.
And closure, [if closure does truly exist]
will be sweet, even knowing I was wrong.
And my thoughts won't have to rhyme anymore,
and I won't carry guilt within my back pockets.
The beautiful let-down to our endless summer.
030303030303030303030303030303030303
2days until I know lifes meaning:
she cuts, you bleed, scars fade.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

How do I...

I withdraw my last entry.
Although, at times, he can be a little irrational,
naive, overpowering and mean,
I <3 him.

"Like A RiCH BiTch..."

Well, Rich Bitch day is successful so far.
Walking around, buying people's families and what-not.

Piss off! I've got so much more money than all of you.

Thanks, Co. <3

You're so boastful, and "all-knowing"
What an asshole,
what a creep.
Yeah, threedays until I--once again--
bask in the glow of your insecurities.
[jerk]

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Jude Law-some

4days until

Monday, December 20, 2004

How do I address a letter to my generation...

I've found it.
It's here.
It's in your eyes, it's there in the mirror.
In the windows, flooded streets with store-bought liquior.
Drink it up to spend money quicker.
Neverland and back,
[a letter to my generation]
is what I've been wanting to tell you all along.
How does one put all of the beauty in the world,
all of the adventures and poetic nonsense onto paper?
How does one inspire the youth to which they belong?
At what exact moment can we look at the sky above us and know that
beauty is infinite, and we are devine.

SCREAMING OUT LOUD:
6 LONG DAYS

Sunday, December 19, 2004

OMG

Nothing to tell you except:
7 days until

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Eleven

there are one hundred and eleven things on my mind
and not a one of them can i find the words to explain
it all seems so plain, like the sun in this dried-out winter
no longer do the nights hold such splendor
am i wrong to be lingering onto your voice?
why do they all keep telling me so?
why do they always ask us...
Wrong thing
wrong thing
wrong Thing
Wrong Thing
WRONG THING always always always do the Right Thing.
(no matter what?) NO MATTER WHAT
I don't want to care how -they feel.
I don't want to be sad 'cause I love your music.
I don't want to hang onto things I've bruised and bro\ken.
NOT FAIR
not fair not fair not fair
11 days--10 days--9 days
always counting
everyday is a count-down
everything is nu#mbere9d
simple
simlpex
comple
comlpex
LET IT BE>GET OUT OF YOUR DREAMS\/
INTO THE "REALWORLD"<AND ONTO TV...

Monday, December 13, 2004

And, so it is. Just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time...

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thirteen13thirteen13thirteen13
thirteen13thirteen13thirteen13

Sunday, December 12, 2004

14

fourteenfourteenfourteenfourteen
daysdaysdaysdaysdaysdaysdaysda
untiluntiluntiluntiluntiluntiluntil
IseeIseeIseeIseeIseeIseeIseeIseeIse
youryouryouryouryouryouryouryo
shiningshiningshiningshiningshin
facefacefacefacefacefacefacefacefa

Saturday, December 11, 2004

And so it is...

_____Oh, no.
_____ Does the joy of writing,
_________the joy of expressing,
_____ does it fade when made public?
_____ Have I resorted to saying what you want?
_____ Am I no longer able to be crude?
_____ ____no longer able to be violent?
_____ ____no longer able to be defiant?
____Fuck that. Let me be dishonest.
_________________be unruly.
_________________be insane.
_________________be anything I feel and want.
____I want to be what you taste.
_____________what you crave.
_____________how you think.
__

__I...WANT...YOU...TO...THINK...
__JUST...THINK...FOR...YOURSELF...
__NOT...THE...MAN...ON...TV...
__OR...THE...BOOK...ON...YOUR...SHELF...
__LEARN...TO...RESPECT...ONE'S...OPINION...
__WITHOUT...TEARING...THEM...DOWN...
__LEARN...TO...LIVE...WITHOUT...QUESTION...
__WITHOUT...REASONABLE...DOUBT...
__LEARN...THAT...SOMEBODY...LOVES...YOU...
__AT...LEAST...SOMEBODY...WILL...
__AND...LONLINESS...REALLY...
__IS...JUST...TIME...TO...KILL...
__AND...HAPPINESS...WILL...BE...
__WHAT...YOU...THINK...IT...WILL

Friday, December 10, 2004

C'mon baby...

1616161616light161616
161616my161616161616
16fire161616161616.1616

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Let's swim to the moon...

171717171717days
whereareyou?1717

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Tough Love:

YOU HAVE TO BE TOUGH.
YOU HAVE TO LET HIM KNOW
LET HIM KNOW HE CAN'T.
YOU HAVE TO TEACH HIM
THAT HE CAN LIVE WITHOUT IT.
YOU HAVE TO SHOW HIM
THAT MORE CAN MAKE HIM HAPPY.
Why is this overlooked?
Why are you pretending it's not there?
If you care so god damn much,
WHY IS nothing BEING DONE?
Nothing except for the poisoning
of a beautiful mind and body.
The wretched, filthy, vile injec>>tion
of death into a loved one.
You going to watch him do it?
Going to c2ou8nt the tracks on his arm?
Short sleeves grow to long sleeves,
"This is the last time."
But it ISNT
But it ISNT and it WONT BE
unless,
What the fuck should be done?

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18you1818181818have1818181
8the18181818181818most1818
18181818beautiful18181818181
8181face818181818181818?181

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

TyPiCaLlY |isolated|

GO TEAM GO!
(except me, spotlights >>on<<.) peanut butter contest
*sexual inuendos:
Here kids, but don't use those cOndOms
FUCK CONTRA-CEPTION(/band)
"Don't show the kids safe rubber,"
--yes, it's better they not know,
"They'll do it, they'll do it if they know."
--THEY DO IT ANYWAY
you want a new addition?
or perhaps some disease infesting their BODY?
NO. [Condoms dont push sex onto your children,
_____they make sure your already active young
_____adults are safe and healthy.] YOU DECIDE.

Listen, real poetry doesn't say anything...