Tuesday, July 26, 2005

[untitled]

driving by the road of old death with a new love
where's new life?
i think it's always old life, old love,
same roads, similiar faces, places,
graces lost times traced cigaretts out, falling out,
string breaks on a necklace of [real] pearls
shattering the ground, my eyes burn.

WHITE DA[ze]YS LIKE THIS

reflections--
i don't know but i think that life as we get older is merely spent reflecting

on times lost, times spent,

has everything i've felt been felt by another?
of course.

the bleak reality is that emotions are
nothing more than triggered memories in the brain,
raging chemicals through our blood,
rushing out to form those red stains
but is that reality so sad?

it means that we really are all one;
politics, memories, blood spilled aside:

everyone will live.
everyone will cry.
everyone will die.

Friday, July 22, 2005

never before seen, just found it in my notebook, enjoy:

Don't you love the wind on your feet?
lusting on white couches
swimming in hardwood
it thumps when you grace its path
the bed, you want to yourself,
encircled in walls always
going back to my uprooted roots
Dylan & The Lizard King
God was the best thing you ever showed me,
now, let me show you how to be moved by a moment
let me love you with my eyes
I want a long porch, more than lusting on white couches,
pierced skin with your lips 'cause I knew they were sterile
feel your pulse quicken
with every beat
untilVOLUME UP,
EYES SHUT,
HEART STOPS
DONTDONTDONTDONT
STOPSTOPSTOPSTOP...
body as an art form, your mind be the music,
hearts won't stop at white couches...

Thursday, July 21, 2005

in a lifetime

it is priceless when i begin to shake at the thought of she and you.
replaying the night i kicked open your door to find you there;
naked lovers' embrace, at best somewhat rehearsed.
but i had a feeling you'd done this before,
played like friends but wanted more.
tricked you with my ciggarette, just wanted to get a good laugh,
what's that? no smiling now,
he's choking now, spinning now, funny how
we all play nice until it hits your lips
it just slips you want it you need it so bad
one taste one hit JUST ONE HIT
it's never really enough or over is it, is it?

Friday, July 01, 2005

Well again

faces are picked, chosen from a brown paper bag,
placed at random atop bodies and bodies and on.
do you ever kind of feel like your soul has been stolen?
by a friend or a family member or even a stranger.
when you can't understand what you're feeling you cannot describe what you're feeling--simple.
if he hits you, you run.
it's like a universal rule or something.
who cares if he loved you every minute up until that point.
or you loved him.
but the point is that a girl just should never let herself be hit.
and all the boys come to promise much better,
but they don't understand its her that makes them hit her.
it's her that makes them yell and scream and cry and fight.
an innocent hand leading them into darkness, she too sees nothing until it is presented....
at a big round company table for the big cash.
at which point the deal is dropped and no one gets that "big cash"....which was actually just a shot at big cash
kind of like those radio shows where they have people do all these crazy stunts to win tickets to some concert...or to win a boat or something.....then after they do it the dj says...
"you've won a chance to win a boat"
bastards. everything is in fine print except the part where you sign your name.
and we all know that we humans have the attention span of -29598736
therefore no one should sign contracts...
where was i going with this?